Healing Through Humor

Part of my healing process is being able to laugh at myself.  Like this video honoring Joey Porter, the former Defensive Lineman for Colorado State.  He had a great College and NFL career but this is only funny to me because a majority of the highlights they show from his college days are of him intercepting or sacking me.  Not one of my best moments for sure. The interception they show is just flat out awful. Even if Porter didn't pick it off the guy behind him would have. I have no idea what I was looking at.

My Biggest Regret

I played college football at UNLV from 1997-2001.  After graduation I was hired as a Graduate Assistant under John Robinson.  I served in that position for two years but unfortunately at that time I made a decision that I regret to this day.  I was about to get married and have my first child and I panicked.  I thought about how the coaching business was unstable and that I wouldn’t be able to support my new family.  I thought about all the things that could go wrong instead of all the things that could go right.  I made a decision to leave the coaching business and get a “real job”.  That was 10 years ago and I’ve regretted it ever since.  I am currently an Internet Sales Director for a major automotive group and I make a very good living at it. I have a beautiful wife and 3 beautiful children ages 10, 8, and 4.  I have every reason to be happy but I am not.  I still have huge void in my life that stems from leaving the game that I love and spend my entire life working toward.  I wish I could go back in time and find that 25 year old me and shake some sense into him.  Explain to him that you can't live in panic.  You can't live in fear.  It's such a cliche but its true that you don't know until you try.  I haven't failed at many things in my life.  But I see know that the main reason for that is that I haven't taken many chances either.  It's kind of like bragging about your completion percentage when all you do is throw screen passes.  It's a little deceiving.  I don't know who this will reach out there if any but please don't make the mistake I did.  Ask yourself a simple question before you look for work.  If I had all the money in the world and I never needed to worry about rent, food, clothes, etc, what would I do with my life?  The answer to that question is what you want to do for work.  If you do that it won't be work at all.